T.I.R.E.D

hi. erm so... yeah. referring to the title above.

i dont know when will my post be an interesting one.

in other words, HAPPY. sighs

i'm tired physically and mentally.

i'm tired of having to hold it in even though how much it hurts me.

i'm tired of being useless.

i'm tired of losing friends.

i'm tired of being a loser.

i'm tired of everything.

i'm seriously tired.

i keep losing friends these days. i dont know if i can say that i still have friends.

its painful at how they only take advantages of me then just leave me hanging.

its always me who started everything. and i swear i'm tired of it.

please. i have heart too.

and i'm unemployed. it makes me feel like a useless person because i'm not even studying.

i was working but i had to quit due to some reasons.

when i want to get my salary, they kept making excuses.

its been two months but i haven't got my salary.

i decided to let it pass.

i'm such a bad luck.

i have no improvements in myself.

maybe its my fault too.

i just....... dont know what to do with my life anymore. sighs

i'm not trying to whine but i'm almost at my limit.

i'm a human too. i'm not perfect.

ya Allah... can You please just give me someone who would really understand me?

i know i should go to You instead. i'm a sinful person.

please forgive me ya Allah.

is this a payback for all my sins? i must have committed too much sins that it become so hard to the extent that i feel like dying.

i'm no one to question this. i know.

please forgive me.

i'll always believe that you have a better plan for me.

maybe all these pain will change to happiness some day.

i'll wait for the day.

i believe in you ya Allah.