Mood Swings.

So, referring to the title above.
Erm. Yeah. I'm having a mood swings right now.
I hate it. But it's unavoidable. /sighs/

It was a boring day. I got nothing much to do.
I've been living like this since December 2012.
It's already a year passed and I'm still useless.
New year resolution my ass. =__="
When I was still in high school, I was hoping for this. Holiday.
But now I somehow regret it. That's what people said.
Be careful what you wish for cause you might get it.
I should be grateful instead.

Just now, I was creeping in Facebook.
I saw few stuffs that I liked and I checked on updates.
And that's when my mood swings started. /sighs/
I saw this girl. About 3 years younger than me.
She's my ex classmate's girlfriend.
It's not that I'm jealous. Duhh~
I saw their conversation. My friend is being his playful self with his gf.
It's really cute. He have always been playful to us but the feelings are different.
Maybe because he loves her so much. I never knew he's caring. /lol sorry not sorry/

Okay back to the story.
So yeah, I literally stalked her. /lol/
She's quite rich. She's cute and pretty too.
Me being the typical girl /lol/ are envy of course.
She got everything I always wanted (except for her bf lol).
I stalked one of my peers too.
She's quite annoying so I hate her. /lol/
But she's getting pretty and stylish.
Let me cry in the corner for the rest of my life. :(

I was someone who didn't care about beauty stuffs.
But hey. I'm a girl too okay?
Who wouldn't feel down seeing other girls prettier than you?
I wanna be pretty but only for some people, like my future husband and Chunji.
I wanna wear cute clothes and accessories, I wanna wear lovely shoes.
I wanna go on a date. I want to be love.
It's been awhile I'm single.
I just can't open my heart because of my confidence.
I want my boyfriend proud to say "Hey. That's my girl." when he introduce me to his friends or anyone else.
Everything doesn't seems to work for me. /sighs/
It's okay. Like mom always said, patience is virtue.
If I wait a little longer, maybe I'll get more than I expected.
Allah knows the best. :')

I'm getting sleepy. I should sleep now.
Goodbye readers. ^_^