its okay..

long time no update bloggie..

i dont want to explain why..

its been always the same reason.. *sigh*

today i skipped fast.. my head feels like about to blow..

plus gastric's attacking me..

aigooo~ so many health problem.. >.<

actually, i think its also bcoz of stress..

i admit it.. i am damn fu**ing stress these days.. -__-"

bcoz of school, friends, feelings and also family..

i am such a strong girl coz i still can smile and pretend like there's nothing happened! XD

i am proud of myself! haha!

but.. its hurting me..

i dont know who will be the most suitable person to share with..

my mouth wont say anything when it comes to my own problem..

i just dont know why..

i'm thinking on deactivating my FB and change this bloggie into a private diary..

its not confirm yet, just maybe..

that's all for today..

bbyong~

Dropping Rain~

Smiling as you say goodbye,
You said to me "be happy, as though nothing wrong"
Looking your back as your walked away
I prayed you wouldn't cry because of me
If I see the flowing tears
I can't leave
I can't let you go
Because the rain was falling
It was really ok
I couldn't see your tears..

it was ok
it's all right..

I couldn't hold you back
cause the rain that could wiped out all the painful memories in your heart was falling down
time passed,
You thought you could forget
It seemed as if nothing was alive
Looking your back while you walk alone
Even today the rain fall down..

I tried to stop
Your tears that were flowing
But it's not possible for me to make you smile
Because the rain was falling..

It was really ok
I couldn't see your tears
It was ok
It's alright..

I couldn't hold you back
'cause the rain that could wiped out all the painful memories in your heart was falling down'..

Don't go
Don't leave..

I'll say this words to your heart
Because your heart was crying and the rain was falling
Because my heart was crying
My tears falls down
Because I loved you
I couldn't hold you back..

I'll Embrace the sorrow in your clear and gentle life
I thought I may become the rain..

thanks a lot.. :)

heartbreaking..

do u even know what that means?

people these days is hard to understand..

hard to believe..

but..

i've found u..

u changed my whole world..

every time i'm down, u always be there for me..

give me support.. to get through this cruel world..

i never though that u would be so meaningful to me..

so wonderful.. until its hard for me to describe it by words..

u are someone that i can lean on..

someone who will protect me with ur whole life..

when i faced the hardest obstacles in life..

even though u are so far away from here,

i still can feel the feelings that we shared..

i'm sorry for everything..

for leaving u always..

from now on..

i'll always believe that..

u are the angel.. that was sent to me from heaven.. :')

funny moments! XD

yesterday and today was a good day for me..
i think so.. huhu
i've done many stupid things.. and also people around me..
i dont know why it would happened..
but its fun, okay?? XD
anyway, it helps me a lot to heal my heart..
while i'm in this situation..
thanks a lot to all of them..
especially my siztas, also iena & fazreen.. :)


since i'm bored now, nobody's around..
i'm going to introduce these 3 people.. huhu


1st, this lil kiddo here..
he's not a kid anyway, his way of thinking is MORE matured than me.. :P
his name is Fazreen.. new student at my school..
he came from SMK Tawau.. now at Science Stream..
a best friend of Hanani and Iena.. since me and him newly became close friends yesterday..
special introduction? many people admire him..
really.. too many..
i just dont know why.. seriously.. =.="


2nd, Iena Amier.. the crazy girl.. haha! XD
we known each other since form 4.. and became best friends since last year..
we shared, laughed, cried and argued a lot..
the last time we laughed hardly was yesterday at her house, Taman Muhibbah.. :P
special introduction? she's the cutie one! ^^


3rd, Hanani Lee.. the BIT** girl.. hahaha! jokes.. mianhae~ XD
me and her became best friends since form 2, when i transferred to her class, 2USM..
and our besties relationship lasted until now! we are 18th already.. ^^
special introduction? she's the most crazy, yet fun to be around.. ;)


since only them that i considered as my closest school friends, thats all laa..
there are many.. but i dont know how to explain it..
so, dont be sad guys.. next time will be ur turn.. huhu ^^
(i hope they wont read this post)


i'm really happy with these guys.. thanx a lot!
i hope we'll become more closer than we are now..
aminnnn~ ^^


thats all for today..
annyeong~ ^_^

cut it out!

*MANGLISH mode*


i am so SEDIH right now..
i feel like want to TANYA him..
what had JADI between us now?
i am so not FAHAM.. huuuu~
enough with the manglish mode..-.-


all i can say here is..
when she need u, u ALWAYS be there for her..
but when i need u, where the hell have u been??
seriously, i'm not jealous..
but in current unstable situation right now, i am really need u..
i always looked for u, but u're not around..
i understand that u're busy and have many other important things to do..
well, good luck.. *sigh*


thats all..
i wont be around anymore..
i know u dont need me either..
annyeong~

Nothing Happened..

Tears are falling without knowing
I wiped my tears because I don't want you to be washed away

Could have erased you, could have forgot you
The days without you make me cry

You left me without saying anything, I wish it wasn't you, please

It's okay if you return, it's okay if you return
It must be just a dream where we were apart for a short time
Nothing happened, nothing happened
If I wake up after tonight

Repeatedly telling with my heart, telling with my mouth
I remind myself so many times because I don't want to lose you
Could have erased you, could have forgot you
The days without you make me cry

You left me without saying anything, I wish it wasn't you, please

It's okay if you return, it's okay if you return
It must be just a dream where we were apart for a short time
Nothing happened, nothing happened
If I wake up after tonight

It's okay if you return, it's okay if you return
I still love you, please please

Nothing happened, nothing happened
When the night is over, if I wake up I'm with you again