stressful day :(

Hey readers.. :)
How was your day?
Mine was..... refer to the title please... /sighs
Okay.. lemme start from the beginning..

Last night i stayed up late at night...
The reason was... my friend said STPM result going to be reveal today..
Its not that i'm nervous...
I was checking on it through sms..
But then it said the service is still unavailable.. i tried twice and got the same response..
Since i'm quite disappointed, i went to sleep without saying goodbye to tlist...

Then early in the morning...
I woke up at 6:34am.. pretty early huh? Idek why.. orz
The first thing i did when i open my eyes was re-check my result.. same response, again.....
I gave up and went to online...
I checked DMs and mentions in twitter and replied to it... checking on some updates.. yeah, i'm a bit outdated these days... ><
Done with that, i went to eat and sleep again.. otl

Throughout the day, i received many bad news and some good news.. idek how to response to it so i ended up listening to music and eat.. i have no life...

Talk about life....
I'm having a mental breakdown right now.. Like seriously...
My friends were all like "I got a job!!" "I'm going for a vacation!!" This and that whatsoever~
Then there's me.. /otl/
I wanted to work... so bad...
But idek why i'm stuck here in my house... Being unproductive like i always am.. /sighs/
I was the one who said "I'm going to work after stpm!" to my friends but then they were the one who got job first.. This month included their 3rd salary.. Then there's me again.... /otl/

You guys have no idea how much i really want to work and being productive to my life.. i never meant to live like useless crap! ㅠㅠㅠ
I do have my own dreams.. and i want to make it true...
I do have my own desires... but i cant get it till now....
I dont want to blame anyone but i cant help it...
If it wasnt bc of you ppl, i would have gone there and got my 2nd salary by now... sighs
I feel so useless.. i'm such a failure..
I shouldnt have blame them... afterall, its my fault....

I'm gonna stop here bc totally blank...
Bye guys... take care and have a nice day...
1:55am, signing off! Xoxo