My Life...............

Good morning!
Today is Sunday, 26th May 2013.
Another boring day for me of course. LOL
I've been like this since December last year.
How pathetic. /sighs/






By the way, today is Tisha's college enrollment day.
She's going to MMU Melaka Campus, taking Foundation in Law.
Though it's not her choice, I'm sure she'll do fine.
At least that's what I hope.







I always feel bad and sad these days.
But I keep it to myself because I don't want to annoy other people.
They might say that I'm a crybaby.
I just don't know why. I feel empty inside.
It feels like something has been taken for me.
I don't know what it is.






I've been keeping distance from him, the one I love.
I don't even know why I'm like this.
Some people said I've changed. They hardly recognized me.
It all started last month. There are times I cried a lot because I don't know who I am.
I missed my old self too. The one who always laughs, jokes, talkative, etc.
Shasha, what has gotten into you?






I was checking through FB's news feed last night.
I saw my old friends. They changed a lot.
They became prettier, cuter, elegant, mature, etc.
Yes, I'm a girl who wants to look good in people's eyes.
But here I am, I have nothing to be proud of.
I feel extremely useless, fat and ugly.
Those are things that letting me down.
I don't want to be pretty if it will only cause negative things.
I only want to look pretty to specific people, like him.
Why is it so hard to do that? :((






Maybe there's a good reason behind all of these circumstances.
I know. All I need is be patient and hope for a miracle, I guess? /lol/
I'm so pathetic. I can't even do such easy things.
I think that is all for today. I gotta do something productive for my day.
Have a nice day people.






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